Having a diet mindset was one of the biggest things that was holding me back from recovery.
“This is too much fat!”
“You are such a pig! You should eat less!”
“Nobody eats this amount of food! What’s wrong with you?”
“Starting from tomorrow you will be 30 days raw”
“Let’s do 3 days waterfast to clean your body and lose this weight”
“You are addicted to junk food!”
These are just some of the thoughts I had frequantly while trying to eat a “perfect diet”. I would “start from tomorrow” 1000x times only to be back to bingeing and purging in a couple of days. Feeling like a failure.
I was quite desperate to find an answer to my eating problems and to cure my eating disorder. I went thought years of trial and error and it only seemed to get worse.
But after a while I started to realise what was my problem, something I never even considered. This was the lightbulb moment for me, when I finally woke up!
The recovery was not easy but I knew that as long as I keep trusting my body and do what other recovered people have done I will reach to full recovery. And I did.
Now I have been completely eating disorder free for 3 years! I eat when hungry, stop when full. I eat everything I want and still maintain a normal weight. I have completely stop bingeing and never obsess about foods. I eat intuitively.
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